My Life

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 05:00:22 GMT

o my fuckin god......

my heros in this world are :icp, flee(rhcp), trent reznor(nin), nikki sixx(motley crew), jimmi hendrex, jason vorheess(friday the 13), lether face(texas chainsaw massacre) and jhonny cash!

and it just so happens that theres a movie comin out about him. i was like freakin!!! its gonna be the shit! i cant wait!!!! well, full metal alchemist is comin on in exactly 30 sec so im out l8r

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 16:42:46 GMT

ok ok ok. so... tell me ninjas. how was thaat last song? did it tare ur head off from the size of that juggal-anthalo love? well i gots another for ya, and probbly another after that! cuz im like a cd player theat has duricell batteris, i get playin music and i just keep going and going, and going! damn! well.... anyway. this song is about that homie of mine from way back when whos about to come back again! he been gone for a while and we miss hiz gay ass smile, damn that was all like love love love and then a dis? anyway this song is for chris!

i look over my shoulder
i look over my back
wheres my homie thats gonna make me laugh
wheres my homie thats gonna care
wheres my homie thats always there
wheres my homie like no other
wheres my homie thats like a fuckin brother
when i surrounded by haters with baseball bats
im gonna look over my shoulder and wonder
wheres my homie at
(ill look over my shoulder and think....)
wheres my homie at
i remember a time when i didnt have shit
didnt have money maby a quarter but that was it
sittin at luch hungry as shit
he walked up and was like..."want a sandwich"
he gave me a dollar and popped my collar
and walked away
he was my homie the very next day
yall remmeber that time his car got crashed
banged up sides with a front thats smashed
i was so scared that my homie had died
but the next day he was like "hey can i get a ride?"

[chorus]
he was my homie
that means hes familey too
you were my brother a part of my crew
but now my homies gone
and i miss you
(some day ill catch ya, ill catch ya)
and i miss you
i miss you

go to school and your under attack
whos gonna be there watchin ya back
a scrimp pulls a knife
but a homie has a battle ax
and he looks at the bitch like "get back"
go grab a dictionary and look up familey
youll see brothers and sisters and in fine print youll see homie
theres only 2 things you needto make a crew
familey and love and its a combo of the two
on the night you left i swore i wouldnt cry
when you drove of a part of my died
hardest thing ever is just to say goodbye
but ya know wut?
ill catch you someother time

[chorus]

homie we down for life
anthalos in the mutha fucka
no matta wut they say were just brothers from diffrent mothers
but its always kinda creepy how you talk about hittin it wit mine
think back to eight grade man shit was fun
havin a fight with that bitch wid a gun
you were like "man its too dangerous"
i was like "fucks dat ill do it for hanous"
we get there he didnt show, he wasnt that hot
but if he was we woulda beat his ass downin the parkin lot!
with a swift kick to his face
we would put him in his place
you were with me when things got muddy
freaky and creepy and extra extra bloody
you were always wid me
we were always buddies
we were together in math class
your the only reason i even passed
and all i ever said to ya was "thanx alot dumbass!"
remember how wed be thugin in our baggy pants
sunglasses chains and our "anal ants"
we always seperated the homies from the phonies
they stuck like glue they were my homies
even though your out there long gone
hope you remmeber us when you her this song

[chorus]

and trust me, hanous is still down! so is the fuckin circle bitch! you cant break us up that easy! come stay with me some time! ill come down and vist ya! me and dustin come up in ya house in the middle of the day and be like bitch! get us some drinks we just ran all the way down here! and remeber anthalos will never, evr die mutha fuckas!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 15:55:34 GMT

life............................................. its happnin...... lol...... again......... today i might go dress shopin and damn it! im determind to go to the scary area in the woods with the bloody cars and shotgun shells, and ripid up torn up clothing. i wanted to go to sloss so bad!!!! aggggg!!!! i needed a ride! oh, well........ im bored. i can waite for paige to come pick me up and take me away!!!

so now i feel slightly better about...."him".... but i still got a little bit of drag. i dont know, maybe its just that i love her sooooo much and that the thought that he has laid his head on her chest and listend to her heart beat, that he has touched her in a fassion that i wish to only have touched. idk, but i know ill get over it. soon.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:54:27 GMT

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! esham is gone!!!!!1

We here at Psychopathic Records are sorry to report that Esham has left the label. We've known Esham for 15 years dating back to 1990. Esham is both a legend and a hero to us at Psychopathic having paved the way for us early in the Detroit underground rap scene. Esham was with Psychopathic for the last 3 years and together we are straight up honored to have worked with him. Esham's decision to leave Psychopathic was a career move and nothing more. It was nothing personal, and there was no fall out or anything like that. It's no bullshit when we say we wish him the best and we'll always be his homies far beyond business. Everybody knows Psychopathic records is all about the fam, and Esham is family, which goes far beyond the label putting out your music. Much love to Esham.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:46:06 GMT

read this tell me ur side? god? or freedom?

sk8erpunxa14 [11:09]: god is an illusion!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:09 PM]: dont tlk bout my God like that
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:10 PM]: does he love you? why does he cause you pain? answer that and ill become a christian!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:10 PM]: yes he loves me
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:10 PM]: and in the Bible never says we wont go thru pain
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:10 PM]: it says we will probably go thru more because we have it awesome in the ned
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:10 PM]: **end
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:11 PM]: on earth we are servants preparing for freedom
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:11 PM]: do u mean slaves?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:11 PM]: no servants
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:12 PM]: do u get paid? no you get "freedom", servants leave when they want, there always free, slaves have to earn freedom, or die to get it! ur a slave!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:12 PM]: no servant
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:12 PM]: i serve willingly
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:13 PM]: slaves have no choice
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:13 PM]: and you sufer willingly also?
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:13 PM]: why?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:13 PM]: because i no he will guide me thru it and it will get better
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:14 PM]: whats the point of making you sufer to become happy, when u can be happy and most likely trouble free? why go though the pain?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:14 PM]: 1...its only temporary pain
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:15 PM]: its a circle
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:15 PM]: y refuse god and go thru eternity of pain
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:15 PM]: joy... pain... joy.... pain
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:15 PM]: my way is joy..........................................................................................pain
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:15 PM]: Anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:15 PM]: god love's you sooo much
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:15 PM]: morgan
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:16 PM]: i wish you understood this, i mean i used 2 think like u
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:16 PM]: but now i know the truth
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:16 PM]: and i know u think im crazy
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:16 PM]: but im not
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:16 PM]: ur truth is a diluted consperacy
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:16 PM]: anthony
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:17 PM]: i belive in god...... i just dont fallow him
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:17 PM]: im sry
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:17 PM]: no... im srry 4 u
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:18 PM]: live ur lie, die 4 ur lie, ill live happy with my own pervesion
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:18 PM]: *perversion....
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:18 PM]: anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:18 PM]: i love u and care for you sooooo much!!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:19 PM]: thats not gonna change things! u shoulda known that i was not a christian, when i first met ya i told ya that i was an anarchist!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:19 PM]: that doesnt habe anything 2 do with christianity
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:19 PM]: no rules... no boundries... no controle!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:20 PM]: omg i was fuckin anarchist then to
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:20 PM]: u cant follow god and be an anarchist! its contradicting!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:20 PM]: no its not
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:20 PM]: not possible!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:21 PM]: anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:21 PM]: i feel like ur yelling at me
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:21 PM]: anarchist - someone who follows no laws, no form of government, and disobays all forms of authority! that means god!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:22 PM]: i dont want 2 tlk bout this anymore
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:22 PM]: god- sets rules!
anarchist - disobays rules!
= not possible!
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:22 PM]: anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:22 PM]: i dont want to talk bout this anymore!!!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:22 PM]: fine....
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:23 PM]: but pleez tell me sumthin?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:23 PM]: wat
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:24 PM]: ????
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:24 PM]: did ur eyes open a lil bit? did they see threw the smoke that is religion?

are u an "anarchist"? cuz if you say you are then i have nothing further to say. thats my life style, and if ur mocking it by saying ur a christian/anarchist, then that basicly means ur mocking my form of life. so... r u?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:25 PM]: i was
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:25 PM]: R U NOW?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:25 PM]: no
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:25 PM]: its stupid
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:25 PM]: did ur eyes open?
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:25 PM]: did u see how distorted religion really is?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:26 PM]: i used 2 think it was but not anymore
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:26 PM]: sooo... ur eyes have closed again. shame shame
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:26 PM]: it happens
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:26 PM]: and im much happier this way
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:27 PM]: like i said... you can live your lie, but im much happier with my own perversion
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:27 PM]: so u think mines a lie and urs is a perversion
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:28 PM]: yes.... mine is my own reality. i live my life how i want. you live urs the way "god" wnts
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: have u seen god? (just yes or no), and dont tell me about faith
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: yes..... no
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:29 PM]: anthony
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: yes
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: no
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: ?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:29 PM]: i thot we were changin the subject
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:29 PM]: just tell me, yes or no
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:29 PM]: anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:29 PM]: 4 get it
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:30 PM]: im not goin 2 b brought down by you
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:30 PM]: im sorry, i want you to see threw the mainstream cloud!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:31 PM]: just awnswer the question. and ill leave u alone. yes or no
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:31 PM]: anthony
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:31 PM]: im not doin this
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:31 PM]: sooo i take it as a no?
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:32 PM]: r u crying?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:32 PM]: y?
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:32 PM]: just awnswer my questions
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:32 PM]: yes im crying
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:32 PM]: y do u want 2 no
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:32 PM]: r u in pain?
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:32 PM]: yea bc of u
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:33 PM]: where is ur god now? tell him to deliver you from sorrow! do you fell better cuz my bet is ur still hurt and crying!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:33 PM]: why pray on flase hope!!!!!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:34 PM]: false*
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:34 PM]: ANTHONY QUIT!!!!!!!!
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:34 PM]: fine
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:34 PM]: im sry i got this started
HARDSTprtOFlivin [11:34 PM]: i want 4 u 2 b happy and is this is it i cant force u 2 c it my way
SK8ERPUNXA14 [11:35 PM]: lol, its fine, i love a good debate

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 04:25:50 GMT

IF YOU DOWN WID ME AND THE PSYCHOPATIC FAMILEY! THEN READ THIS FOR YO MINDS!

this song is a song that the ORIGINAL anthalos came up wid! this is the anthalo anthem suckas! it tells what, who, how and wut the hell an anthalo is! its taken me a while but i got the folder back! so without further to do! get prepared to have ya face torn off, your ears start bleedin and ya eyes get pimpslapped out ya head and threw a wall by the three and only original anthalos! give it up for Azid Rain (anthony), kayotic (dustin), and c-pimpin, the fallen homie from amillion miles away! (chris!) here it go :

[azid rain]

we the big mackin
drivin the mutha fuckin cheese wagon
were like crazy bohemons
runnin down the street screamin (jopa!)
we gives no fuck and we poor as fuck (bitch fuck)
you know wut fuck drivin in a car or truck!
we drive a mutha fuckin tank (witchaaaa!!!)
and blow the shit out ya house (blaaammm!!!)
run ya ass over and look up your doughters blouse
we combo of pimps, zug thugs, and juggalos
we are the mutha fuckin anthalos bitch!!!
we the anthalos
and we crazy as hell
we do anything we want
expect to see are ass in jail
and if an A zizzle homie is in a fight
then you betta pray you make it through the night!
what the fuck bitch! why you smilen?
dont cha know you about to get a thug whilin
by a mutha fuckin anthalobitch!

[chorus]
cuz we anthalos and we give no fuck! (no fuck)
come across us and you straight outa luck (no luck)
cuz we anthalos and we down till we die (till we die)
we kill the whole fuckin world and we dont even try! (bitch)

[kayotic]

its like dis
everybody else can suck my dick
and i could give a fuck less bitch, you aint shit
ill be the first one to say i got cha familey in this shit
true i sold my soul
i neva did shit wid it
i couldnt give a fuck about it so i know i could live without it
a constant struggle to get to the top
increase the deceased
if you go pop ill watch you burn
press the button stop at nothin if you fuck wid the anthalos
you betta think before you say somthin ill be all up in ya grill
lookin for the good scream style
mutha fucka fuck wid da mess
in tha hood it aint good remember that all you suckas
on the internet thinkin its kool but we aint into that
sittin in my room mad depressed tryin to releave stress
by stickin pencils in my chest
god bless a bag of weed so i could get high
and get back at tha suckas
wid music that will make ya ears bleed
pro seed to talk that shit its al wack
im gone
get high
and pay the whole world back!

[corus]

[c-pimpin]

when i say jail you say no
jail (no) jail (no)
when i say antho you say los!
antha (los) antha (los)
wut go to jail (pssshhh hell no)
were to slick for the damn 5.0
wut confess? ill tell you i did it
ill tell it to your face bitch! i admit it
see your problem is theres not enough evidence
im a murderer, rapeist, and hether's next (ha, ha!)
is it wrong to love you stepsister? (uhhh?)
fuck her then cut her head off and not even miss her!
see were not your average rappers!
we dont wear white t's and nickies
just these
skater clothes and audios
and we crazy as fuck
go to a nursing home and kill em all
just cuz they owed us a buck!
with us you dont want to dilly dally
cuz we da type that cant waite to get ya in a dark ally
so ya better hurry up and get to the point
cuz im waitin for ya on the corner smokin a joint (sykez)
i dont need drugs to het me high
im already crazy as fuck with the blood shot eyes
give ya money bitch im a hustla
and you my freind are now my best customer
you best watch ya back
cuz ya never know when we gonna act with an attack
that will leave ya outa whack!
you mess with my familey you mess with us all
ill have ya ass hammerd up againstthe fuckin wall
think you could tske us?
go ahead and try
i swear to god that your bitch ass will die!
you got freinds? go ahead and bring them!
trust me dawg you gonna need um.
cuz, when the phone call the hood is sounded
in less than 5 min your ass is sorounded
by the anthalos......

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 02:40:12 GMT

sup, i might be goin to the movies wid shawn tomarrow. welll i just asked my dad and he said no for multiple reasons which sux cuz i wanted to see that movie. well fuck it. ummmmm........ ya.............

well anyway....... wow, dramatic mood swing. im all like depressed now. weird. i just cant let things go. im so weird. i think i can handle the past, and accept it but when i stop and think about sumthin i heard or sumthin i read i just keep powerdriving it into my brain and eventually it breaks my heart again. well nuttin duct tape cant fix. well.... ill catch yall l8r
much luv
peace and chicken greece.

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 03:00:42 GMT

wut up? its ya #1 ninja! azid rain of the anthalo crew! u cant kkkil a anthalo! he'll tear ur face off and eat it, then he'll shit it back out and sew it back on ya head , upside down bitch!!!

anyway heres the thought of the day, thanx to j.c.

fart as often as possible b/c if u hold em in, they go up ur spinal chord and into ur brain, which is where shitty ideas come from.

well................................ ya............... l8r with mcl, and peace wid chicken greece cuz im out like ya luck mutha facko!!!!!!!!!!!!1

im back suckas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 04:52:34 GMT

paige is gonna kill me, this lj is about, other weomen and how gay the a.a.r. are.

back from the beach. it was uber gay. it was gayer than andy, jeffery, and the all american rejects put together. (lol, im kidding, yall know i dont care if ur gay or not) but seriously, its almost as gay as the all american rejects. "swing swing" is about how they turned gay, "dirty little secret" is about how he's keepin his gay lover a secret from everyone, and theres a reason why the word "reject" is in there name. well that was a nice little rant anyway i saw 2 concerts and never went outside. stayed in the whole time. it was awsome. i rerented "enter the matrix" game and beat it 100% in 3 hours. awsome.

anyway, 3 girls hit on me, 1 girl gave me her phone #, but im not callin that skanky ass hoe. how come when ur single no one likes u, but the second u got a g/f u got sluts standin in line outside ur house lookin for just a peep of my sexy body!!?!?!?!?

anyway, i missed the run, i really wanted to go. oh. well,

peace like chicken greece

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 06:41:05 GMT

well my comp is workin again. sorta. my mom got my password fixed, except she got it for the old screen name that i never use. gay. now i have all these parental controls. well its only till monday. i cant run the race ta. srry, goin to the beach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate the beach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well anyway, maybe ill get a prize or sumthin well mcl,

weel, peace like chicken greece and im out like ya luck,

l8r

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 22:18:52 GMT

i got glasses today. there sorta emoish, its the only pair i could afford. im so poor. well i worked half a day today, and now im dialated and cant see worth shit. but is all kool, cath yall homies l8r

peace and chicken greace
much l8r luv

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 05:41:33 GMT

damn....... interweb.......... more people..... need to talk to........ no one here.......... im so lonely.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 06:29:02 GMT

Aloha, bitch! That's all I can say. What can you say to me that's fresher than that? Ninja, I'm coming to you live and direct, from my house, BUt i just got news from my parents that we might go to the beach in hawaii. Dolphins are gonna be doing backflips, and puffer fish are gonna be puffin' on coconut-flavored blunts. and The starfish are gonna be chillin' hard as fuck. Starfish move so slow you can't even see them moving, that's how hard starfish chill. so ya....... andrews mom is hot. id hit it.

so......... whats going on in yalls life....? ..... no answer. just crickets. nevermiind. as soon as i said that they stoped. so, im alone. by myself. naked. noones online. im alone...... so desperate and alone. and hungry. bored. my dad just woke up. now hes asleep again. sooooooooo alone.............

well...... peace like chicken grease. l8r

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 02:46:19 GMT

sooooooooooooooo............... life. its happenin. i lost my yello folder. thats my prized possesion this year. it had a lot of pics and poems and songs in it. whish it were here. so.... recently ive just been getting so jelouse, self concious, nervous, and paranoid when it comes to paige. thats gettin me in trouble with the missis. if anyone sees my folder pleez get it back to me. i feel so empty and naked witout my poem folder. its yellow, has "fun" and some other stuff drawn on it. it has my name on it a cuple of times and last i remmeber it was either in mrs. woodlys class, or mrs. lamar. i will give $10 to the mr/mrs/miss that finds my folder, i really need it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 05:35:19 GMT

my parents think im smoking again. im not trust me!!!! please???

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:26:55 GMT

top 5 fav bands for ta

1)afi
2)misfits
3)alkaline trio
4)icp
5)red hot chille peppers

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:23:35 GMT

this concert was awsome. reggie and the full affect was koo, mcr was koo, but alkaline trio was the best. i rocked out to "time to waste", i couldnt breath and i was about to pass out but i heard that and i was like "hell yeah!!!", paige was supporting me, and i just turned around and boom!!!! it was on. i found my freinds jeremy and dustin. AND i saw michel and his bro, joey. everyone picked me up and then i went surfing, then i fell, some dudes cought me and there i went again!!! eventually i fell on my head but it was pretty rockin. i wanted to see alkaline trio so bad and my dream was realized!!
we threw joey up and he surfed all the way to the stage, he tried to crawl on stage but security threw him off. it was awsome.

injuries : wrist (got hurt moshing)
finger nail (got ripped up moshing michel)
face (fell surfing)
ribs (moshing )
shoulder (hurt )

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 05:42:32 GMT

concert was off the hook. i got my ass kicked, i got some second hand doobie smoke and lots of it, got a shirt with a pentagram on it, gonna wear it on monday, its gonna kick ass... so sleepy... about to pass put l8r

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 03:38:38 GMT

well........ my hair appointment got canceld again!!! so i spiked it myself!!! looked gay but... what am i gonna do!!!?? so i dont know if ill do it agin but, im gonna find a new place to get my haire down at...

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 05:50:09 GMT

well.... today was so creepy. first me and paige were acting like were still goin out. then we got back together.

i got my hair cut. somewhat short. but... it looks awsome when i spike it. youll see on friday.

i cant waite till summer. im gonna grow my hair out and make it look like the guy from motion city soundtrack. its going to be awsome!!!!! cant waite till summer!!!!

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 21:34:49 GMT

wow.. weird day

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 04:25:55 GMT

the past is in the past. but if you remember it then... isnt it the present?
thats my logic for anyone who says to forget what i know! anyone who says that i should forget about chris well.... i cant. i know something that only me and paige know about him. and trus me if you knew you would think he was still here too.

anyway. ive ruined my life. the only girl i really loved, is the girl that i just broke up with. life is just to stressful right now. and i know ive changed, and i know that what i do hurts her now, but what she said wont ever heal. but i swear that when life isnt so bad for me, ill comme running back. just waite and see.

p.s.- paige i still love you so much. it really hurt me to do that. and i have a perfect reason for it. i just cant tell you right now. but i swear ill tell you. until im back in your arms, dont put me in a box in ur closet, dont forget about me , knoww that i love you and that ill be back for you, please dont erase me from your life like you did chris. i will be back and most important of all dont love anyone else. ill be back for you i swear.

i love paige with all of my heart, because she is my heart, and without my heart i will die. i love you so much. just waite for me....

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 05:56:14 GMT

fuck my previous entry. life is back to hell. aparently god has a cruel since of humor. wait till im so happy and then let me find my suicide note, and the note that made me want to kill myself last year. god damn you. just when i start to understand why you put people through shit i get hit in the face with a curve ball and relize that its just that ur a dirty little cock whore!! stop fucking with me and go after the real bad guys. leave me the hell alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 03:33:09 GMT

life is good. ive got a g/f who loves me so much, ive got a's and b's, im slowly getting some money, ive got mcr tickets, ive got my car goin good,im in a band, and im dramaticly increasing my musical skills. im learning the guitar, piano, sampler, synthasyzer, turntables, sax, bass, chello, violin, and to top it off the "qweeftrumpet". (inside joke)

if any ony knows wut a qweeftrumpet is its fuckin halarious. i saw it on a video and laughed my ass off

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 06:51:17 GMT

remember that you should never try to hump a woodpecker hole while jumpin' on a trampoline. its just not safe.
so..... bored as hell.... need someone to talk to.... slowly.... going... insane.... brin hurts.... need sleep.... god damn woodpecker...... hurts.... nut sack..... but.. cant stop... jumping... on .... trampoline.... lol
well, well, well, its little ol me. i just found somethin halarious for those kinky sluts. you know who you are, *cough,cough,liz,cough cough , here it is:

The One Eyed Redskin - After banging a girl on her period, wipe the blood on her face, come in her eye, and stick a feather in her ear. Then dance around the room, naked with a towel over ur junk, yelling, "woo woo woo woo!!".